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For many years I struggled with admitting my truth because of thoughts like “Who do you think you are to believe that you can make a living going to work for yourself as yourself.”  My deeply ingrained beliefs produced fears and these fears crippled me. It was hard to be successful. Instead of working through these fears,  I hid. 

I hid my dreams and desires deep within.  From a distance no one could tell I was hiding but I knew.  I hid in motherhood by making my children my whole world.  I hid in my marriage by choosing to focus on the unhappy parts. I created drama myself by choosing to be silent about things I should have spoken up about. This opened the door for me to hide in being a victim and dancing with thoughts that made me feel as though my life was horrible and showed no signs of getting better anytime soon. 

The truth of the matter was spending all of the seconds, minutes and hours doing what made me happy was my dream.  It was hard to admit this because it made me feel selfish and it seemed
far-fetched even though I knew people who were doing it. My dream life did not include working a
full-time job yet it entailed me making a living using my gifts, talents, skills and knowledge. What I know for sure is that I am a gifted people developer that spiritually support others on their journey of healing.  In my heart, I know I am a coach and teacher and that I was created to help others heal.  

I was afraid to openly admit this though.  Afraid of ridicule, judgment and abandonment. I was afraid to own and take responsibility for my desired results for fear of failing and looking silly being who I was created.  But hiding made me feel half alive, disconnected and aloof.   One day I decided it was time to stop hiding, sound the alarm and speak my truth.

Soon aligning my reality to my soul’s calling became more important than other people's opinions.  After a while, doing God’s work overshadowed my fear of failing. Once I accepted that I was being unkind and unloving to myself, I made the decision to stop hiding and speaking my truth. This made me feel alive again!   

Most of us fear owning our dreams because we focus too much on things that are out of our control, things like "how" and what other people will say.  Some of us hid from our truths for fear of abandonment and fear of not getting what we want.  Regardless to the reason why you're hiding, how you’re hiding or what you’re hiding from, I am a firm believer that  self-love can help you overcome this cycle of defeat.

Recently on my podcast, From Powerless to Powerful, Linda Mitchell of Amazing Self LLC joined for an intimate and empowering conversation "No More Hiding: The Ultimate Self-Love is Speaking Your Truth".  She shares a practical formula on how to stop hiding & develop a self-love routine that will teach you how to truly enjoy being who you are. Listen in and be inspired to give your inner child permission to  sound the alarm, live authentically, and have fun again!!

Listen here.

Until next time,
Make it a great day!

Cynthia Newell

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Last year Aretha Franklin's "Bridge Over Troubled Waters" was a constant reminder that God love was comforting and always available. There were so many instances when evening fell and I did not know what to do.  There were many occasions when I needed God to be my strength and still the storm brewing in my heart.  I needed God to carry my portion when unexpected situations arose like filing bankruptcy without an attorney, the sudden onset of illness with a close family member and having to make decisions I never had to make. 

         "Whatever makes you uncomfortable is your biggest opportunity for growth." Bryant McGill

If I had to sum up 2017 to an expression it would most definitely be emotional roller coaster.  My prophetic gift was developed and tested in some unfamiliar ways and endurance  was strengthened through the sudden death of my close friend Darlene. Also, I faced one of the most challenging feats of motherhood when I had to make my two daughters eave our home because of disrespectful behavior toward my husband, their step-father.  I salute women who are a part of blended families; I know how it feels to to be torn between your children and spouse. It takes emotional and spiritual maturity to survive these kinds of situations. This experience inspired my new coaching program, "Abigail's Grace" - designed to support wives with children and wives in blended families - the program will strengthen, stablish and settle your faith. Instead of feeling like death or divorce are your best options women learn how to confidently live fully and peacefully through their experience.

            "You will either step forward in growth or will step backward in safety." Abraham Maslow

I chose to move forward.  When 2018 arrived, I made a decision to focus on things that brought me joy and made me feel connected, free, loved and complete.  In order to accomplish my goals, I knew I had to be intentional, it's no wonder that God gave me the word "intention" for 2018. God even gave meanings for each letter of the word, it means:

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