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For many years I struggled with admitting my truth because of thoughts like “Who do you think you are to believe that you can make a living going to work for yourself as yourself.” My deeply ingrained beliefs produced fears and these fears crippled me. It was hard to be successful. Instead of working through these fears, I hid.
I hid my dreams and desires deep within. From a distance no one could tell I was hiding but I knew. I hid in motherhood by making my children my whole world. I hid in my marriage by choosing to focus on the unhappy parts. I created drama myself by choosing to be silent about things I should have spoken up about. This opened the door for me to hide in being a victim and dancing with thoughts that made me feel as though my life was horrible and showed no signs of getting better anytime soon.
"Sounding the alarm and speaking my truth frightened me."
The truth of the matter was spending all of the seconds, minutes and hours doing what made me happy was my dream. It was hard to admit this because it made me feel selfish and it seemed
far-fetched even though I knew people who were doing it. My dream life did not include working a
full-time job yet it entailed me making a living using my gifts, talents, skills and knowledge. What I know for sure is that I am a gifted people developer that spiritually support others on their journey of healing. In my heart, I know I am a coach and teacher and that I was created to help others heal.
I was afraid to openly admit this though. Afraid of ridicule, judgment and abandonment. I was afraid to own and take responsibility for my desired results for fear of failing and looking silly being who I was created. But hiding made me feel half alive, disconnected and aloof. One day I decided it was time to stop hiding, sound the alarm and speak my truth.
“Owning our stories and loving ourselves through the process is the bravest thing that we will ever do.”
Passionate writer whose mission is to uplift hearts & offer sensible ways to create a beautiful life. Her transparent sharing encourages emotional healing & spiritual growth. You too can overcome, walk in victory & see value in every situation.