All the compliments about the weight I had lost were great. When people would ask how I’d lost the weight I’d tell them that a lot of foods had been cut out of my diet. They’d marvel at my discipline but the truth was I couldn’t eat much of anything because I was sick, very sick. I was suffering from stage 3 colon cancer. I didn’t know it at the time but I knew something was going severely wrong in my intestinal area because when I ate certain foods I’d be in so much pain, pain I wouldn’t wish on anyone. Because of this unbearable pain I decided not to eat; I didn’t know what would trigger the attacks, so to be safe rather than sorry, I gave up eating regular meals.
After the cancer was gone and I was back home, I was thrilled with my new size and once I was well enough I started exercising regularly and being mindful of what I was eating, but before long I started to indulge in what I desired to eat. Chocolates, fried food and even fast food got reintroduced to my diet. This resulted in me putting back on most of the weight I had lost, though I was not happy, I was still very grateful not to be sick anymore. Consequently, the tightness of my size 16 clothes and the extra weight on my face and butt made me want to reverse what was happening by.
"During that time in my life I didn’t feel as strong as I do now. I felt powerless back then. I didn’t know my own strength."
In times past whenever I’d commit to changing my habits to yield weight loss results, midway through I’d falter, get bored, stop being disciplined and start feeling as though I was being cheated or missing out and slowly I’d revert back to my old habits. During that time in my life I didn’t feel as strong as I do now. I felt powerless back then. I didn’t know my own strength. My recent bout with cancer taught me so much about myself so I have recommitted to getting the extra weight off once and for all.
Though I have committed to reshaping my body there was still a part of me that questioned my viability. “In my distress I called upon the LORD, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears. (Psalm 18:6) I asked God if I could do it and He said yes of course daughter! I wondered how God was so sure and that’s when He pointed out a few characteristics my cancer experience had gifted me:
Persistence – once released from the hospital I had to do daily injections of Lovenox to prevent blood clots, I HATE NEEDLES, however, I persevered and did what was overall best for my well-being. )I hear blood clots can lead to death.)
Self-control –not willing to risk feeling the God awful pain associated with eating certain things I demonstrated discipline and made wise food choices.
Fortitude – operating from a new level of awareness and self-understanding, my ability to withstand and let go became much stronger, my endurance muscle grew tougher.
"Who I am and the strength I possess is clearer from this view."
So now, looking within I see and know without an ounce of doubt that I can accomplish whatever I set in my heart to do. From this view, the best view, I see my new found wisdom and increased tenacity. Who I am and the strength I possess is clearer from this view, allowing me to see and get rid of self-sabotaging thoughts and actions sooner rather than later.
As the New Year approaches, many of you like me have goals you want to accomplish and dreams you’d like to build. I’d like to help you be successful that’s why I am offering two free workshop webinars, “End Self-Sabotage & Reclaim Your Power" or “RISE & WIN: Success Strategies for BIG Results”. During these workshops you get to:
Until next time, make it a GREAT day!
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