You Will Smile Again

When life crashes down and everything shatters, splattering on the walls of your heart and the pain you feel is visible to all that look upon you, it's hard to believe you'll ever recover, it's hard to fathom you will smile again.  Between the every day fatality of our hopes and dreams of living from a place of authenticity and the phony fallacy that perfection does indeed exist, it's a wonder you and I haven't lost our minds.  Well actually, I think I may have lost my mind a few times, however, there is a natural tendency for things to eventually fall into place, it's just the way life is.  Our giants - debt, divorce, low self-esteem, uncertainty about the future, disappointment - whatever the giant is in your life, can be defeated.  And just like, "trouble don't last always", you are stronger than you believe.  

I didn't think I could take one more thing going "wrong", hell, I was already dealing with enough.  The summer I found out my 16 year old daughter was expecting, I had to choose in an instant, to stay sane or go insane. Devastated and tired of feeling like I was making a mess of my life, blaming myself for her choices and feeling embarrassed for standing behind my decisions made me want to spaz out, it was hard to hope or picture life being any other way other than difficult.

One night while standing on the bus stop a man appeared and spoke as if he had an open book to my life.  He assuredly said, "You will smile again.  Your kind isn't built for defeat, you always find a way to win, it's just who you are."  We talked the whole bus ride, he mainly talked, I listened.  Once he departed the bus, I thought how good it would feel to dream again, to hope again to look forward to life.  

When I arrived home God instructed me to read a poem I had written a few years earlier titled, Life After. This poem reminded me that I was powerful and though what I was facing felt unbearable, there was life after the storm.   Yes, storms leave damage, clutter and debris to clean and clear which is sort of a blessing in a special kind of way.  The storms of life not only help us to see the writing on the wall a bit clearer but they offer us the opportunity to release what no longer serves us and create a new life experience.  We must get and stay connected to the Source so that we are able to withstand the storms of life and get in the flow. Being in the flow means not going against the current yet getting in its path and letting it take you to your destination with ease.

Whatever you're facing in this season of your life my friend, it's important to remember YOU ARE NOT POWERLESS and you are supported by a loving God, a God that is very near you, a God who provides guidance and answers to your prayers.  When your life becomes exceedingly overwhelming and you are unclear of what your next steps should be, offer this simple prayer, "God, I need you."  And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear. (Is. 65:24 KJV)

Until next time make it a great day,
Cynthia